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[blamedestiny]

Are you asking if I dream of you often?

[choicely]

Must you always need it spoken so plainly?

[blamedestiny]

No but I already told you how I feel about you, Yennefer. You don't need to keep testing that.

[choicely]

[ a long pause, so long he might think she's stopped responding, before: ]

Then say it the next time we are face-to-face, instead of hiding behind these devices.

[blamedestiny]

I am not hiding behind it. I didn't message you with the intention of our conversation taking this turn.

You've said very little about how you feel for me.

[choicely]

It was hardly anticipated from my side, either.

[ another long pause, and then: ]

I believed I couldn't trust it.
Then I realized it had been ages since I'd so much as thought about that fucking djinn.

[blamedestiny]

And so what does that mean?

[choicely]

Any amount of uncertainty doesn’t change the degree to which those feelings do exist.

Or the intensity of them.

[blamedestiny]

So, what is the problem, then?

[choicely]

The problem is there's no convenient way to undo what you chose while we're here.

Although I have missed you.

[blamedestiny]

Would you have stopped yourself from loving someone if I wasn't here and the emotions were there, Yennefer?

[choicely]

I was speaking of the djinn.
But, since you asked, my emotions are not so easily won. At least not within the span of a mere year.

[blamedestiny]

You say that but you don't know what happens here.

[choicely]

Not entirely.
But I cannot definitively say I would have given my heart to another, either.

[blamedestiny]

I know you cannot.

But you also cannot say you wouldn't or hate me for what I did. It happened and I don't regret it.

[choicely]

It would be simpler if I found it at all possible to hate you fully.
But I do not.

[blamedestiny]

I would apologize for that but I'm not sorry about it.

[choicely]

I wouldn't believe you even if you claimed to be.

[blamedestiny]

I suppose this is one instance where I'm glad to be see through.

[choicely]

You're not as inscrutable as you like to believe you are.

[blamedestiny]

That's one person's opinion.

[choicely]

Given our history I’d like to think it holds more weight over some.

[blamedestiny]

Hm.

Perhaps.

[choicely]

Well, that's not entirely a disagreement.

[blamedestiny]

I know you know me. I'm not doubting that. But I have changed in the last year I've been here.