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[choicely]

What is it like now?

[princess_of_ida]

I can still sense it, but it whispers to me. It uses my sister's voice.

[choicely]

As a lure?

[princess_of_ida]

Yes. It wants me. It calls to me. Most of the time I know it's a trick.

[choicely]

You recognize it for what it is now, though.

[princess_of_ida]

At the moment. I have a charm that helps me recognize its the Void but it still sounds like her. Says things she says. It gets harder the more I'm exposed to the Void.

Some days it's almost too much.

[choicely]

If it happens again, you can reach out to me. Just like this.

I imagine a distraction would help.

cw: suicidal ideation

[princess_of_ida]

If only it stopped. She's always whispering to me these days. The price I paid for my ill-advised research all those months ago.

It's only those moments when I'm dead that it's finally silent.

[choicely]

I realize this might go without saying, but even if you are Deathwarden, killing yourself may not even ensure peace and quiet these days.

[princess_of_ida]

I only stay dead for a short period of time. It doesn't really stick with me.

Don't worry, Yen. Alina has implored me to stop being cavalier with my death.

[choicely]

I'm not worried.

[ or so she claims. ]

If it's a matter of blocking out the Void, perhaps there's something I can try. A shield of sorts on your mind.

[princess_of_ida]

Did such a shield help you in the caves?

[choicely]

Only to a point. Get close enough to the Void itself and I'm not sure it makes much of a difference. But the further away you remain, the easier it is to maintain some form of block.

[princess_of_ida]

A possibility. Is this something you set or have to maintain?

[choicely]

For myself, the shields are in place until I choose to lower them. For others, I'm less certain of the details short of actually attempting the spell.

[princess_of_ida]

My concern is that if you need to maintain them, like you do on yourself, that means they can be dropped whenever it suits you.

[choicely]

You don't think I'd give you the courtesy of a warning first?

[princess_of_ida]

It's not that. It's the lack of control. It doesn't matter how much I trust someone, it's still something under the control of another. Assuming that's what it is.

I'm aware it's paranoia but can you really blame me?

[choicely]

No.

Because I wouldn't allow just anyone into my head, either.

[princess_of_ida]

That said, we can try and see if it can be set instead of maintained.

[choicely]

Fair enough.

[princess_of_ida]

When are you free?

[choicely]

As soon as you like.

[princess_of_ida]

I'll come by tomorrow then.